Now the world makes me puzzled.
Am I the evil one?
Or is the other?

The situation's been stagnant eversince.
But it's not that I have not tried.
I did once. I did TWICE.
Is that not enough?
Won't I be called stupid if I were to let the person who pushed me down the staircase twice to do it again?

Thinking of the big picture...
Maybe I should fall a few more times.

Look at it this way:
1) if i were not to give that person another chance, the whole bunch of friends would more or less not work well.
Therefore, I will become the baddie.
I will be the one stopping everyone to enjoy each other's presence.

2) give the person a chance to make peace.
Start a conversation. Drop a hint. Give her an opening for her to show that the person is still interested in this whole whatever relationship.( I duno if I should call it friendship in the first place.)
Break the ice so that the clique can start to go back to the past. However not forgetting the past... what had been done to you.

NO WAIT!

Qn: Why are you doing this?! Isn't that being hypocritical?!


3) It's not that I do not think about the past.
I want to.
But it's best that I forget.
There were happy times.
But it makes me flame when I know that there will be a part where I will get hurt.
Not just once.







Here we go again.
Look who's the one being condemned.
I'm the one being mocked at.



Therefore friends, you have to understand the dilemma that I'm in.


If there's a need... I would be the DEVIL.
Just because people knows the way to be nice.
Just because people are good at their language and makes everything they do sounds nice.
Just because I don't speak as well and don't try to be nice to anyone.


I am the EVIL one.




okay.

so be it.

take it or leave it.

Cottoncandyclouds; 11:54 PM